Charas-Project
Off-Topic => All of all! => Topic started by: Arcanagirl on March 16, 2006, 09:07:48 PM
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I want everyone to know what could happen to me in the next month and wish to say a few things incase I dont get to later.
My cancer treatments are failing and not having money or insurance keeps me from getting better treatments to save my life. They always could remove the cancer by force, but lack of funds may also place that as an option they cant do.
I find out tomorrow if the cancer has fully denied the treatments and is growing back to high. If that is the case I dont have time to wait for insurance cause this cancer in high stages will spread and kill within days.
Right now I cant say what my chances are, unless I know they will remove it without charging my husband and I. I pray for god to help us in everyway there is, but today I found out there is nothing anyone can do for me. Not even Cancer of America. They only help those with cancers that are outside the uterus or close by.
My only hope is if SSI grants me back on and gets me medical within the next week, but I checked on my status and its far from being determined.
I want everyone to know my goals and dreams before I go. If worst comes to worst.
Goals in life I always wanted to complete before my time:
-Play Suikoden 5 when it releases on March 29th, I been waiting long time to play this and I better live to play it or I will be mad!
-Make the best damn game that anyone has every played! So good it ranks up with Square Enix games.
-Own my own business selling and buying back new and used games and computer stuff.
-Have a child of my own, but that looks very slim at the moment.
Dreams before my time:
-I want to get my game finished completely and have everyone play it. I worry if worst comes I wont even get to the demo release, but I am trying my hardest to work every last second on my demo. And my life comes before my game, but if my dream is to see it out and played by others or even Square Enix making what I couldnt finish, I would be happy.
So if I am to pass this world with peace, I rather die knowing I worked towards my dreams then to live what life remains doing nothing but going crazy when everyone denies helping me or giving insurance coverage.
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... i will pray for you
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All we can offer to do is pray for you. And I shall... hopefully, it makes a difference.
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I'm really sorry to hear that. I wish everything turns out okay.
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Wow...I'm sorry to hear all of this. I honestly hope you live through it.
I really admire how upbeat you seem with all of this. Its just...wow.
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I'm at a loss of words... This is really serious. I wish there was more I could do, but all I can do is pray for you, and I will do that much. I really hope that something can be done to help you so that you can fulfill your goals. :(
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Being non-religious, I cant pray for you, but I can say I hope you get better. If you wanna create a Square like game, you'll need some really good (probably expensive) programs, and a team, and all that other fun stuff. Meh.
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Very touching. I hope you can acomplish your wishes.
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Wow... hopefully things will turn out alright...
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I already told you how I feel. So, goodluck, and you're in my prayers.
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I really do hope you'll be alright Jenna.
Take care.
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I'm not going to hope that things will get better. I know things will get better. At a point in life where a person is facing high odds, there's always something that saves them. You could say I'm idealizing, but when I see and hear this stuff on the news or radio almost every week, I can't help but know that things are going to get better. You've got too much left in your life that you need to to accomplish, Jen. Keep looking for any kind of aid you can. If there's a will, there's a way. You'll find it.
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God Bless lady I don't know.
*Deletes stupid thing said in your game therad.*
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Youīre gonna get through it girl, please donīt speak of it as if itīs over...God'll be looking at you and wonīt let you go 'k?
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You are in my prayers.
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You are in my prayers as well. My grandma has skin cancer and my great uncle had cancer. They are alright- you will be to. I know it
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I'm so sorry. You will be in my prayers.
You can't give up hope though, never. Good luck.
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All I can say is that it would be a hard blow for many of us should you...lose the fight, Jenna. It's cases like these that makes me wonder why do they put a price over someone's life.
Should you leave us, be sure to haunt Square-Enix and force them to do your bidding :D
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Also Make sure to cam by my house.I might scare you back to life. :D
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... i am still praying for you... do not be too worried, i faced ...it... before and won. you can win to just if you are positive it helps alot
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I am keeping positive, but I really think everyone should know whats going on and that even in bad status, you can always keep your chin up and even play games and get a demo out if possible :P
That is more of what I want out of life and what I want to do before I go. I like to be prepared in case my time comes before I want.
I also want everyone to know if I disappear it isnt cause I left, but bad things came and got me instead.
This is my second home, I dont plan to ever leave it for a seriously long time. Everyone here is like my family. I help in some areas where people may need me and I can help. Then they help me at times too. We talk have good times. Hope this place stays alive forever and ever. I have seen and played some awsome games and I hope to see more and maybe even my game at the top.
Too bad admins dont make a forum section just for game demos already out, maybe below the game center where everyone posts ideas for their games, game stats, and demos or snapshots...Be more organized if it went like that, but it also be some work to place all the games with demos in game thread moved to demo thread...hehe just me babbering about ways to get organized..I am just a neat freak lol.
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Demos and such are in your game thread. Edit and organize your original post in that thread to include links to demos and such if you want. If the becomes to cluttered and disorgnized for some reason, you can start a new one and let the old topic go.
Anyway, I don't think it's your time quite yet. I don't know why I say that. Just sort of a gut feeling that I get occasionally. Let's both hope I'm right, okay? ;) You'll be in my thoughts and prayers as well.
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Well Christ, that's a downer.
I hope you get dramatically better like, soon.
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Good luck to yeh. And its nice to see you standing strong. Those who don't fear death are usually able to defeat it.
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lol, dont say that! I dont want to live forever, I say let me die right before I go senial. ROFL :flower:
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All I can say is. My god be with you.
Have you tried a loan?
I think medical sh!t is so fuked up if it does not put money in their pocket then they refuse to help anyone besides in India. Which will preform an operation for cheap and will let you stay in the hospital as long as you want to with no rush but, the doctors tend to be lazy and preform horrid operations.
I don't see why they can't just work something out with people. It's all bullshit. If I was a doctor and someone was sick and could not afford "the cure" then I would freaken help them.
Money is not the only payment that one can receive. The fact of knowing you can do something that helps others should be enough. Sure doctors have to get paid and nurses and all those other people but it's a freaken life something can be worked out.
Then people say "well the government can't pay for operations and such"
but they can spend millions of dollars on a goddamn war. Trying to solve a problem that's older than the freaken US. If I could help in anyway I would even if it meant robbing a bank for ya I would.
(yeah my typing is lousy this I know but it's the way of the Smo)
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This is my first time reading this and I am well speechless....I..I had no idea.......I hope you get better and are able to reach your goals. I can only wish you luck and hope you will be with us for a very long time. :heart:
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I had no idea..
All I can say is that you'd better come back, this community ain't done with you yet, Jenna. :P
You haven't really had the best days lately, if there is any justice left in this world.. you will get better. You have all of our support, and if there was anything I could do to save your life I would do it.
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I'm at a loss for words, all I can say is just never give up hope. Always believe in tomarrow and the day ahead. So don't look at this as the end, look at it as another hardship that you can overcome. And remember, everyone here at charas is praying and hoping for you as well.
Too bad admins dont make a forum section just for game demos already out, maybe below the game center where everyone posts ideas for their games, game stats, and demos or snapshots...Be more organized if it went like that, but it also be some work to place all the games with demos in game thread moved to demo thread...hehe just me babbering about ways to get organized..I am just a neat freak lol.
I would like to see something like that too. At the least we could just have a sticky in the games section that is just for demos. Poeple could post links to their original game topics and links dirrectly to their demos. I've seen something like this used at other forums, and it worked out pretty well. Its not the same, but its better than nothing.
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Well, I just came back from the doctors and got my results along with another shot...First off news #1
My hormones have dropped, now this is good, but it isnt a for sure thing if I may get over that, but its better then it going up. They say if it goes down more by next thursday I may not need to see a specialest.
News # 2 A lady named Amy from Family Connections has just told me I can be covered for Medican here in Kansas, and it would grant me my own food stamp case, even though I am on that with my husband, so more food. It will also give me full coverage as long as I am disabled in life I stay on it, which in my case be forever lol. Also it grants cash aid to me also, where I get extra 150$ a month to pay bills down here and its a sure way to get me back on SSI too... So thats the good news!!!
I bet everyones prayers helped thanx. I take this as a sign I may live. Cause if I dont I be mad.
I will keep you all posted on this, just in case things turn out diff.
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It is good to know things are turning around.
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Wala Wala wOOt!
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Hopefully things will continue to get better from here on out :)
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I'm glad things are getting better!
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Hey, I prayed for you last night, and it seems that they were delivered! Thank God things got a little better! Iīll keep on praying, I have good conections in heaven ;)