So...

[Linkforce]

...I think I might be back..

There's actually an explanation as to why I left.  Well...I didn't really "leave" I just went through a really, really rough patch in my life.  It might not seem like a big deal to you, but to me, it was a defining moment.  

In April me and my girlfriend of like a year and a half broke up.  Yeah, one of those.  But she was the first girl I ever loved and yadda yadda yadda.  Anyways, we were broken up for like 2 months, still talked every now and then, and then on June 10th, I received the news that she had a new boyfriend.  If any of you have ever seen the movie "500 Days of Summer", that was basically what my summer was...the second half of that movie.  I went into a really depressed state.  Like, massively depressed.  I've never been "depressed" in my life so this was all new to me.  The feeling of a broken heart is TERRIBLE!  I don't recommend it.  
The icing on the ****-cake was that I had also found out that day, that my best friend of 8 years had been lying being my back...for years.  I told him everything, and everything I told him went back to my ex.  Any girl I was talking to, any party I went to, anything I thought about her that I didn't want her to know...everything.  He told her everything and drove her to the arms of another guy.  I wont go into details, but it just added to the severity of my situation.  I basically had nobody to lean on.

Being "alone" for the first time in my life was very dramatic.  
1. I cried almost every day for the month of June.
2. I failed my summer class, because I couldn't focus on anything.
3. I dropped like 15 pounds in 2 months because I had no appetite.
4. I secluded myself from the world and spent days just lying on my bed.
(Again, for anyone who's seen that movie, you can sort of see what went down)

Naturally, all these factors contributed to why I never popped up here.  Or any other website for that matter.  I stopped working on my game, stopped writing (creatively that is, I filled up a whole journal), and my life consisted of work and sleep.

After about a month or so, I went through a period of "self-reflection."  I went over and over in my head, analyzing situations in the past, the things I did, the things I didn't do.  Missed opportunity, mistakes, all of that.  I reflected on myself, and realized a lot of negative qualities about me.  I learned a lot about myself.  Reflected on the people I had wronged in the 3 years I had been with my ex (3 years "together" 1 1/2 dating).  So with that, I went about to changing myself.  Know that phrase, "people don't change?"  Bullshit!  People DO change.  People CAN change for the better.  All you need is a wake-up call, and I definitely got mine.  I righted a lot of wrongs, apologized to a lot of people, and my outlook on so, so many things changed.  I was a different, more mature person.  I did 3 years of growing up, in 3 months.

So 5 months later, here I am.  A different person.  A better person.  Without my "best friend" I've realized my potential, and because of it, I have so many new friends.  So many better friends.  And finally, I can come back to the things I enjoy, like Charas, my game, writing, and everything else.  

That's kinda where my inspiration for my sig and avatar came from.  My sig represents a "trial by fire" if you will.  My avatar represents a "revival" of sorts.  Chessy, maybe.  100% truth?  Absolutely.
If you've read up to this point, I really appreciate you reading my story.  This, of course, is the abridged version.  But now you can maybe understand why I was gone for so long, and why I'm back now.

[Bluhman]

...HI... You are ELLIPTICAL!

welcome back!

[Felix-0]

:3c
hai~

[Archem]

Loving it. Welcome back.

[Moosetroop11]

Welcome back dude! This is lovely news.

[Cerebus]

Welcome back!

Enjoy your stay... and DO stay!

[MissingName]

:D

[Linkforce]

For anyone who's interested, I've written why I'm back lol

[Cerebus]

Wow... okay... damn.

Sorry to hear, but glad you've been able to rise again.

To be honest, I'm not sure I'd be able to stand up again if something like this happened to me...
But I'm weak, and I know it. Fortunately, all is going very well so far, so I doubt this will ever happen.
For me, it's actually the opposite that happened on April, and my life only changed for the best.

But anyway, we're glad to have you back, and hope you'll stay, since most people who came back left shortly afterwards...

[Archem]

Sounds like it sucks, but I can't say I understand. I guess I respond more with malice than depression when I'm betrayed. But enough about my future as a criminal, it's good to have you back.

[Cerebus]

For some, it's a good place to not be alone anymore, too!

[A Forgotten Legend]

Basically to continue Lucas's point, you're never alone!  You've got charas!

...well, that doesn't sound pathetic or anything.  >.>

[Archem]

You're better off alone than with us, but you feel better when we're inside you.

I'm not sure if I'm making a proper drug abuse joke, or if it's become something sexual...

[Cerebus]

I'd say it's a bit of both. Which is fine by me.

[drenrin2120]

Ohhhh, life.

Regardless, welcome back!