~A Long Waiting~

[drenrin2120]

Okay, I made some hype about this a while ago. But I never got around to actually releasing the songs. This is because I wanted to add my voice into them, which looking back now makes me feel like an idiot because it would've sounded horrible. SO, instead of turning them all into high MB MP3s, I'm leaving the album as MIDI. The reason being is, I've started playing guitar and have discovered chords and power chords. Which basically means, all my old Rock Midis are impossible to play in real life, which makes me sad.

So, I'm going to try and get a band started, leaving this album as a MIDI album. Just for fun. And it was fun to compile and make all these as if it were a real album. So I guess I'll release the Midis for you guys. There are 14; I actually used some of them in my game, as like Credits song or major cut-scene. So, I would appreciate it if you DO NOT use these.

Okay, I'll post the song, track number, and lyrics. NOTE: The little flute thing you hear is where the singer should be placing words.

 1.) Let's Go!
 2.) An Old Life
 3.) Limit
 4.) Bend In the Road
 5.) Intro
 6.) So I Try
 7.) Pop-Quiz
 8.) Drum Intermission
 9.) Lonely Company
 10.) Nate
 11.) The Solos
 12.) The World Goes Round
 13.) Saying Goodbye
 14.) Madness

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[drenrin2120]

NOTE: Not all songs have Lyrics, since the album was never finished. But the songs are pretty much all done. The only thing I'm iffy about is 11.) The Solos.


 Let's Go!

You can’t save what can’t be helped,
You’ve tried your best to walk this far.
But you can’t talk to those who fell,
And you can’t erase their scars.

Let’s all just run,
Run away from this noose.
Let’s see where we can go,
When we’ve nothing left to lose.

We’ve lost all we could ever gain,
Why not leap into faith?
We’ve seen it drive ’em insane,
There is no “without a trace“.

You can’t save what can’t be helped,
You’ve tried your best to walk this far.
But you can’t talk to those who fell,
And you can’t erase their scars.

So why are we going around, going around…
In this circle life has made.
Just give it up, it’s over,
You’ll never see it jaded.

So let’s run away,
Let’s go, let’s go!
We’ll take a plane anywhere it‘ll go,
The rest is just there, you should all know.

We’re letting go our anger,
And replacing it with hope!

Let’s goooo!!!!!

Let’s run!!!!!

Why stay where you hate,
And who called it fate?
I’m not one to take,
I’m ready to break…!

Let’s go!


 An Old Life

The ocean rises,
one swell at a time.
I’m pushed out of line,
As you cry those sweet fake tears.

All this is a dream,
I couldn’t tell you why.
It all ran together,
Why don’t you ask yourself?

I’ve never been so used!
Never been so cheated,
So badly…
hurt so badly!

I know you never loved me,
And I don’t know why,
I ever said, “I love you.”
I hate you!

But all that’s good in me,
shows through with every step,
towards leaving and
forgetting everyone.

You turned your back on,
I guess I dodged the knife.
but now you’re just a part,
of an old beat up life.

My heart beat skips one,
I’m losing control.
And everyone around me,
Is goin’ with the flow.

Lookin’ back now,
I don’t know why I wanted you.
I guess I needed,
Something to hold on to.

I’ve never been so used!
Never been so cheated,
So badly…
hurt so badly!

I know you never loved me,
And I don’t know why,
I ever said, “I love you.”
I hate you!

But all that’s good in me,
shows through with every step,
towards leaving and
forgetting everyone.

You turned your back on,
I guess I dodged the knife.
but now you’re just a part,
of an old beat up life.

You never loved me, baby.
Needed to use me, baby…
I can’t remember, baby.
We never touched, my baby…

So save your tears and fake sad smile,
for some other sucker that’ll love you a while.
You’re just a bad apple,
In this orchid of a world,
I can’t believe I picked you up.
But everything is something,
Nothin’ happens for nothing,
And I’ve learned something from you…

I never loved you, my baby.
It was just for lust, little baby…
I hate you.
You’re a double edged knife,
Little baby.
I’ve left you with the rest of an old life.


 Limit

Don’t walk around like you know me,
Don’t talk around like you‘ll show me.
There’s a reason there’s a limit,
And there’s a limit for everything.

I know what you’ve been sayin’,
I see that game you’re playin’!
You can shuffle all you want,
I just won’t hang around this spot.

You wanna **** with me?
You wanna push and see?
See where I am goin’ with this!

I just won’t take it!
I just can’t fake it!
You’re fists are ready,
And my mind is achin’.
I wanna **** you up,
I’m gonna rip this bitch up,
I’m gonna show you how to hurt!

Don’t walk around like you know me,
Don’t talk around like you‘ll show me.
There’s a reason there’s a limit,
And there’s a limit for everything.

And now your eyes are hazy,
You’re sight is blurred, I’m crazy!
You’ve pushed me to the brink,
Are you ready to sink?

Haha, you’re a joke,
I’ve seen your kind before.
Talk some smack, and come on back,
Then leave me ready to snap.

This is gonna end,
With you face down.
Sniffin’ up some dirt,
I told you you’d get hurt!

You wanna **** with me?
You wanna push and see?
See where I am goin’ with this!
Rrrrrrraahhhhh!

I just won’t take it!
I just can’t fake it!
You’re fists are ready,
And my mind is achin’.
I wanna **** you up,
I’m gonna rip this bitch up,
I’m gonna show you how to hurt!

Don’t walk around like you know me,
Don’t talk around like you‘ll show me.
There’s a reason there’s a limit,
And there’s a limit for everything.

Yeah-ah-ah…

There’s a limit,
Just one chance…
Don’t bring me there,
You’ve pushed me there!


 Bend In the Road

There’s so many things I’d like to say to you,
I’d like to paint a picture of this world in you.
That you dwell your thoughts in,
And let them help you win.

For a heart that beats for love,
Is like breaking free from all the above.
So I listen to what she told me to be,
My mother told me to be.

It’s not good,
It’s not healthy…
To live in a world you made.
It’s not good,
It’s not helping…
To savor this hate, you would.
It’s not right,
It’s all wrong.
When you put up your fists to fight.
What happens, will happen,
There’s not much you can do,
But hold on tight,
And let this world make you true.

And I don’t wanna look at you,
With that sad smile in my head.
It’s breaking me down,
It’s gonna leave me dead.

So I question god…
I question everything in my life.
I wonder if he has a plan,
Because a part of me just wants to grab that wheel and…
Turn around!

Don’t look around…
Turn around!
Can’t you hear the sound?
It’s heavy beating,
Hardly breathing.
Begging please,
Why can’t you stay inside my dream?
Turn around!

It’s heavy beating,
My past is bleeding,
I just wanna take control,
Turn back the clock…

For… ever and ever,
For everything!

For… ever and ever,
For everything!

It’s not good,
It’s not healthy…
To live in a world you made.
It’s not good,
It’s not helping…
To savor this hate, you would.
It’s not right,
It’s all wrong.
When you put up your fists to fight.
What happens, will happen,
There’s not much you can do,
But hold on tight,
And let this world make you true.

It’s a dream I’ve kept inside my mind,
It’s a fight to keep me sane.
It’s a life that will kill me if I try,
Never bring this pain…

I can’t help but wonder what could have ever been,
I can’t help but cry over those that have sin!
I can’t help it! Help it…I can’t help it! Help me…
I don’t want it to stop!!!!!

*Guitar solo w/ piano chords in background and light drumming*


My life has taken one of those wide turns…
The kind of thing you try to dodge but hit anyways
I know it really ain’t as bad as some…
But is it wrong when I say…
I wish I could stay…


 So I Try

..Refrain Below..
I sit here as the day goes bye,
past me like a dream.
Once remembered,
now lost forever.
So I try to…


The weight of it all,
comes crashing like thunder.
So heavily upon me,
Breaking down my degree.
So I try to…

You were once a figure,
To look at with wonder.
But now you’ve turned to black,
So cold, you never seem to lack.
So I try to…

Refrain…

I try to cry,
as I sit here in my thoughts.
A boiling pool of hurt and red,
churning sickly as if  t’was lead.
I’ve tried to…

Tried so hard,
To change your ignorant soul.
But you push on forward,
Falling farther down your hole.
You test it…

Refrain…

The grip I had so strong,
lingers only by your stare.
Now once remembered,
will soon be lost forever.

And so I cried…


 Nate

He sits up in his room,
He’s got his guitar in his hand.
He’s thinking what to write
But he can’t even stand.
He’s got the world on his door step,
His heart on his mind.
But he doesn’t want it…

I remember when he told us,
She was sick and in her bed.
But she was strong, she would make it.
It wouldn’t be long, ‘cuz she could take it!

And he never said again.
When someone asked him how she was,
He’d just smile, he’d pretend.
But it was winter and things were dead.

The last thing that he said to me,
When I asked, though I knew it was wrong.
She’ll be fine,
And he turned to play a song.

“Joe,
where you runnin’,
with that gun in your hand.”
Nate,
Where you goin‘,
With that hole in your plan.
But now you wonder,
Why is god not on trial?
As you sit, and you cry,
Askin’…
Why can‘t she stay for a while?

You lock yourself away,
And your eyes are looking’ gray.
A chill can bring on death,
And the will can make you pray.

With a bottle to tip,
and a wonderful trip.
Brings you back to the point,
you were trying to forget.

The last thing that he said to me,
When I asked, though I knew it was wrong.
She’ll be fine,
And he turned to play a song.

“Joe,
where you runnin’,
with that gun in your hand.”
Nate,
Where you goin‘,
With that hole in your plan.
But now you wonder,
Is it just “Smoke On the Water“?
As you sit, and you cry,
Askin’…
Why can‘t she stay for  a while?

Hey!
Why you tryin‘,
What you told me she said.
Nate,
Don‘t give up,
When you’re cryin’ in your bed!
But now you scream,
What is wrong with this world??
As you sit, and you cry,
Yellin’…
Why can’t she just stay a while??

A while…
Just a while…


 Lonely Company

When I say lonely,
Do you think, “If only?”

 And I’ve been told,
This music is gettin‘ old.
You better get set,,
“ ‘cuz I haven’t started yet!”

 I can not shake it,
This feeling is breaking.
Controlling, constricting,
This force open friction and,
All of these words,
that repeat without meaning.
Are dire, and pressing,
Remember this one thing is…

 Your hopelessly lost,
in a world that you found out.
Forever in the company,
Of all those hollowed out.

When I say lonely,
Do you think “If only?!”
You better get set,,
“ ‘cuz we’re about to get hit!”

 Why do you say that we’re lost,
When we’re found so this
Painfully breaking
Renewal is nothing but,
Now I see you’re lonely,
Do you think you owe me?
‘Cuz all that I’m doing,
Is living like you should!


 Saying Goodbye

A fire inside of me,
Burns outward and tries to be-e-e-ee,

I know I’ve sung this song before,
It‘s true, it fades into the we-est.
Penetrated, and hated, like a war,
2 to nothing’ , I tried my best.

I’ll never forget you all,
You showed me so much,
And why true friends never fall.

Now I’ve noticed,
That the summer days are over.
The leaves are turnin‘,
My tomorrow is burnin’!
I’m looking out the back door,
And I see you.
You’re smile is coming throu-ough.

When will I be there again?
I never knew!
I guess it wasn’t meant to last.
But I can still see them.

I did a lot of growing up there,
I kissed my first girl there,
I lost my first heart there.
I learned how to live,
When there’s nothing left to live for,
Yeah, I even learned
how to bite the curb.

When will I be there again?
I never knew!
I guess it wasn’t meant to last.
But I can still see them.

I lost my father,
I Couldn’t bother,
I tried,
To make him see-ee.
I found a friend,
And he told me his pain,
And I told him some of mi-ine.

When will I be there again?
I guess I never will!
Because it wasn’t meant to last.
But I can still see them.

I can remember,
The good and the bad times.
I remember the fights,
And the divided lines.
I can feel the winter,
Well, I can see her picture!
Of my first…

Sneakin’ me in to the High School dance,
And eggin’ Ms. Bitchey’s car!
We never did anything by plans ‘cuz,
It was good enough for fate,
Yeah!

So all these things now,
That I must say my goodbye too.
I just can’t believe that it’s really all over.
But I will never forget
you all mean so much
I can’t even tell you how.

When will I be there again?
I guess I never will!
Because it wasn’t meant to last.
But I can still see them.

And since it wasn’t meant to weather,
Can I stay here forever?
Just gimme time to let go
And then I’ll know…


There we go, my entire album project as is! I'm done with it. I've had fun, but time to move on with actual guitars and a band. Hope you all like it. (I understand NO ONE is gonna spend their time listening to everything. Just pick and choose.)

[Meiscool-2]

Looks Good. I didn't have enough time to read more then the first song, but I can tell a great ammount of effort must've gone into these.

[drenrin2120]

You bastard! What did you say about my mamma!

lol, jk

Thanks!

[coasterkrazy]

They don't work for me. Otherwise, I'd be sure to try to go through them all.

[drenrin2120]

Hm... I don't know why they don't work. rrr

EDIT: Just give me a few, and I'll have 'em working, somehow.

[AsakuraHao2004]

Could you just zip them or something and then upload them?

[drenrin2120]

I don't think so, putfile is against hosting files so others can download them. It's weird, it says they support .mid files, so I don't know why it's not working. I posted a thing on their site forum asking for help, but nothing so far.

[AsakuraHao2004]

I mean, upload the zip file to charas. A bunch of zipped midis cant possibly be more than 524288 bytes.

[drenrin2120]

Yeah, I guess that works too. It's only 51 KB. So, I guess this will work until I find otu why putfile's not working.

[Red Giant]

Wow, these are really quite exceptional. They have a nice classical tinge too. Rock on man.

[drenrin2120]

Glad you like em Red!  

[coasterkrazy]

Hey, they sound great! Keep up the good work!