Hi guys. Big news here.

[forgetaboutit]

Hey. It's your beloved and terribly inactive admin... Ellie.

First, I apologize for not having been on Charas at all since forever. Okay, now for the hard part.

Most of you know me as Lucas. But truth to be told, I've never really been one hundred percent comfortable living as Lucas. There was always a little something in the back of my head reminding me that this was not who I really was.

I'm a woman, and for the past three months I've been going through Hormone Replacement Therapy so that my appearance matches how I feel on the inside. It's not easy, it's definitely not cheap, but... It's necessary, and the results have been making me happier and happier.


For those who're interested, I started a comic on tumblr about my transition in February, and you can find it here. I might not be updating it anymore, due to some personal reasons. However, I did start a new comic, which is about my life with my boyfriend, who is also trans, and you can find it here.

[Archem]

I'd be lying if I said I could accept you as anything other than what you are/were, but I'd be lying if I said I would stop liking you for doing what you're doing. I'm sure you (and anyone else who knows me) know that I'm a rather accepting guy, and that I don't hate anyone, but I do have the controversial view towards transgenderism, and I don't want to simply ignore that. As far as I'm concerned, it changes nothing about a person, the same as with any other cosmetic surgery. Elephant in the room, I know, but all I can say is that to me, you'll always still be Lucas, despite your outward appearance (sorry).

That bit of uncomfortable ranting out of the way, congratulations on taking a step forward in your life to become the person you want to be. I'm proud of you for being able to come out and tell us this; it must have taken a lot of courage to admit it to anyone other than yourself.

[Moosetroop11]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCG5jphUaVA

[Archem]

I'm not shocked (hints have been dropped), though it's not exactly expected.

[Moosetroop11]

In all seriousness I've immensely proud of you. It's a hard thing to do!  I just couldn't resist the youtube clip, is all.

Talk on some sort of messenger if you want, since we haven't had a good chat in ages.

[Cerebus]

I was kind of wondering why you'd name yourself as "Ellie" on Steam. I thought it was only a character named on your initials (Or at least that's how you'd pronounce "L.I." in French) or something.

I'm not really sure what to say. I guess I'm kind of in the same position as Archem here.

I have no less respect for you, it's just, well... very unexpected. And adapting to calling you Ellie might take some time.

On the other hand, as others have said, congratulations for actually stepping up toward being the person you want to be, and for having the courage to admit so rather than just vanish without a word or something.

Cheers.

[Prpl_Mage]

Now I feel like a bad friend for not keeping enough in touch with you.

But why not Lucy?

I'm also okay with this of course, if this is what you feel that you gotta do, then do it.

[Linkizcool]

Congratulations on customizing your consciousness-carrying biological unit to suit your desired functionality!

(That was pretty alliterative until the middle-right)

Also, I like your drawing style. Pretty snazzy.

[SaiKar]

o_x

[A Forgotten Legend]

I'm happy that you are allowing yourself to be who you really feel yourself to be.  It takes a lot of courage to go through with anything like this, and even putting yourself out there for the entire internet to see and read about is amazing.  I wish the best of luck to you and Chris on your journey through this!

[drenrin2120]

**** yeah! That explains why you've been absent for so long.

I'm really happy for you. You got my full hearted support, Ellie!

[Momeka]

Whatever floats your boat.

[Dr. Ace]

Whatever floats your boat.

Pretty much this. Why not the name Luca though? Would be the obvious choice.

[DragonBlaze]

So in some MMOs, you can just spend $10 to make these kind of changes to your character instantly. Too bad it isn't that easy for you in real life

Anyway, good for you! I know it'll probably be pretty rough for a little while yet, but good luck, and I hope all goes well!

[lonewolf]

you go girl
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SKFwtgUJHs good for you
i have got used to this  we see a lot friends in London doing the same thing
you are who your are at the end of the day
and thank for letting use all know
i hope you have a good life and it's a good thing you got
some one in your life that love's the real you